About me…to be honest, it feels a bit narcissistic to write a page about ‘me’ but since this is my site I guess I need to share a little about me.
I’m originally from Washington state. Grew up in a small town that had one high school, a lot of churches, banks and gas stations. Growing up in a small town meant you knew everyone and everyone knew you…whether you liked it or not. Despite some of the stigmas of small towns, as an adult I look fondly upon my growing up years in a place where there were fields of tumbleweeds, endless farmlands, no Walmarts, no commercial anything…even our donut shop was the real deal. There was just something about growing up in a small town that makes room for an organic upbringing where you take long walks, play with dirt, make mud-pies, feed cows, pick dandy-lions, collect eggs, play games with chalk,marbles and rocks…simple things…good things…wholesome things.
I was always attracted to the big city because it was a departure from how I grew up. I always dreamt of moving away to something different. At the age of 21 after a 7 year relationship that was abusive and destructive I did, I picked up myself and all that I owned which was basically my clothes and a few journals and I moved 3000 miles away to Florida and started my life over..and start my life over I did. It was here that I feel my life truly began…
At the age of 23 I met my husband of almost 17 years at our local church. We met in our church singles group 18 years ago where he was playing drums and I was leading worship. We started off as friends. He was the most comfortable, kind, amazing, funny person I had ever been around. I felt safe and I hadn’t felt that way before. We never ran out of things to talk about. It was as if we had known each other our entire life. I remember ‘knowing’ he would be my husband…something in me just knew. People say these sorts of things…and it sounds like something out of “Sleepless in Seattle” ..but it was true, we just…made sense together. We could go from having the most deep conversation to joking about utter nonsense. We are still like this today. We fell in love fast and married 8 months after our first date…and here we are 17 years later…still talking about things that matter..and things that are just flat out silly. Our relationship started over a simple cup of Starbucks coffee and today..every morning we meet on our front porch over a hot cup of coffee..to this day we still talk about life.…solving the worlds problems, we dream, we talk about our kids…we are two crazy kids…like I said…we just make sense together.
After several years of infertility, doctors, surgery, etc… We have 4 children – boy/girl twins age 8, a 6 year old daughter and a 4 year old fire cracker daughter. Our children are the living breathing reminders for us of Gods goodness. Every morning I get to look at them and see dreams…prayers…hopes – realized. I don’t know how…I don’t know why…God answered our prayers times 4…I feel undeserving to be entrusted with such a privilege.
Being a parent has probably been the most life changing, gratifying, spiritual awakening experience I have had. I have come to understand the love of God in ways I never had before. I suppose being a parent aided me in removing some distorted views I had of God…now that I am a mother I experience a love so intense, so great, so drenched in love that cannot be removed that I for the first time in my life see God not as unwavering causing me to be insecure but a God who’s love is immovable loving me in ways that are so deep … a well of love so deep…that never runs out… I understand…because I’ve been given a bit of a glimpse of this love in the love I have for my little cubs.
So to say motherhood…is part of who I am…yeah…HUGE. But there are other parts of me…I have been leading worship at Christ Fellowship in South Florida since I met my husband. Music is a bit like oxygen to me…and using music as a medium to do what our hearts are naturally inclined to do ‘worship’…well it’s..natural.
I also serve along side one of my best friends in a ministry called “Strength for Single Moms” that teaches and encourages Single Moms. Together we gather to bring Single Moms together in community to encourage one another, learn about God together, help one another, pray for one another.
I am a contributing writer for WayFM and My Faith Radio, my personal blog here and facilitate and write for Hippy Happiness which was birthed out of my long 4 year battle with auto immune illness. I feel fortunate to have a multitude of outlets to exhale questions, a few answers but mostly just the opportunity to express and experience life through the beauty of words.
I am a singer/songwriter finishing up my first solo album. Volume 1 is scheduled to release April 2016 and Volume 2 sometime over the Summer of 2016. I have moved the songs written in the margins of my Bible, a plethora of notebooks and compiling them into an album that speaks of the journey that God has brought me along.
When I read this it feels like a lot of things – but I can’t imagine life any other way. I was created to glorify God and I get to do that in these ways. So, I guess this page is kind of ‘about me’ but really…it’s more about what God is doing through and in me.